Life in the woods

Unfortunately, I have been unable to live deliberately,as my
dear Thoreau suggests. I am certainly more awake than many years
before,but I would love to be free of cigarettes.It has been exactly 7
days today,since I have ingested the foul marlboro weed.I am sure he would be appalled(as am I) at the amount of money spent on tobacco.The heart website says I will save $3650.00 this year.That's a lot of meandering.

I have been trying to quit for 10 years,to no avail. I absolutely refuse to try the latest pill,I don't trust the FDA. A year from now,they'll be recalling the damn things. My husband has been on them awhile now.He has recently added the patch,and is not smoking.

I will keep this short today,I need to go for my walk.Every time I have quit in the past,walking has released the proper chemicals in my mind to keep my head above water.Natural endorphins.I don't dare smoke again,I turned 40 last month.My grandma died of lung cancer,and my 65 year old aunt has emphysema. When I speak to my mother on the phone,she coughs uncontrollably.Who am I kidding. It is not,nor has it ever been,safe for me to smoke.Not to mention how much money the tobacco lobby donates to commander cuckoobananas,but that's a story for another day.

I have taken to carrying my new camera phone,maybe I'll see something interesting.