The Fourth Dimension

I have been back almost a month,and I cannot bring myself to accept it. I mused before I left that I wouldn't be coming back the same person. I wasn't sure how that would manifest itself,but I knew it would happen.

I am sure of only one thing,and that one thing is this: I was right. It was the most beautiful place on earth,the park was so Large! The surrounding area was filled with things I'd never seen or imagined. Who goes to a bar for lunch and sees a polarbear and griz display? I assure you,you have a better chance of getting shot before your cheeseburger arrives where I come from.

Roadside stands with huckleberry pies and milkshakes. I never had a huckleberry before. They are amazing. There were even little bushes of them at the airport. The airport was like a mom and pop operation,almost. Not the looming near-metropolis airports I have always experienced.

The people smiled and joked everywhere you went. Everybody had a bear story. We put 1,200 miles on the rental car. Car hiking,we called it. When we got back to CT,as we left the airport,I looked around,it was a nice day,sunny,blue skies, trees ..hey...where's..the..mountains? I felt so sad that they were gone. It's actually hard to look at pictures of them,because I miss them.

I finally got some pictures back Wednesday,seems they had been delivered to the wrong address,the apt. next door is empty,and I found them in the door. I won't be doing that again.I have alot more ,but I'm going to do them in person.

I hate being back. I went on one hike out in the woods,and it was the best I felt all month. I need to go more,it's the only way I'm going to get over this sad feeling. It really is beautiful right now,too. I believe we are at peak foilage.We had a good storm last night and there are alot of pine needles floating on the river alongside the leaves. And the sweet perfume of the fall is everywhere.
Yet, everywhere I go,everything I do, I miss Montana. I should not have gone,because now I know what i am missing. That was the shortest week of my life,and I need to find a way to keep the dream alive,because I have all I need right here. Scenery,nature,wonderful people a good life.
But, out there is was SO INTENSE. Intoxicating, even.

The Fourth Dimension.